ahhhh, finally i have internet access! it's like living in the dark ages without it.
anyways, so i guess alot has changed since last time i talked to anybody. I moved to abu dhabi, i got a sweet place and loving it. I don't have to wake up at 5 anymore. i don't get home later than 6 anymore, unless i want to :) i actually have time to see friends and life is great.
I used every strategy i knew. I planned it perfectly. I executed with complete professionalism. So beautiful it was. For over 3 months I slowly molded and shaped. So many obstacles were overcome. No one even knew what I was doing till the final push.
It worked. I managed to get what I wanted. Not even that, I was asked to take what I wanted. I was so proud of myself.
Just a couple more weeks I would be exactly where I wanted to be.
But this! Now! How could I have controlled lunacy?!
It just goes to show that no matter what you do, there are always idiots in this world who control your fate.
I made a mistake in judgement. Not the kind of mistake, where you know what you're doing is wrong, but one where you do something that seems totally innocent. Yet later when considering the ramifications of your action and it's effect on someone you care about you realize you could seriously hurt them.
I feel really really guilty. I should have thought of what I was doing.
